Its been so long

But i finally decided that i need to start blogging again because that was my former way of venting & ive been holding in so much stuff lately.

1. Why do people let someone else change them? Its like this summer, people have been acting up and acting different. Im not jealous or anything AT ALL so please dont think that, im just not understanding why people would chose someone who treats them bad, always makes them unhappy and is just straight up rude.. over someone who really cares, or used to care atleast because i dont give two flying fucks anymore.

2. I understand that we are friends, i really do. But i dont want to hang out with the SAME person everyday, all day, all summer. NO. i dont know if its cause you really dont have any other friends or what, but somethings gotta give. I still love you, but i dont love being smothered by a friend, its kinda weird actually. Give me a break. Please.

3. Yeah, I've changed, I know. I dont think im blind. Im growing up, i think its about that time you gave it a try too. Stop trying to pinpoint everything that I've changed about my self and apply it to yourself. Im realizing that as you get older you have to let some people go, some just arent worth your time anymore and some are just there to bring you down. None of that is needed on Alexis' end though. Go home. Little Girl.

Im here ;

PRETTY MEEE!
Im back on this , but not for a while;
Im just a lil upset that people are tryna;
jock! Now everyone wants to be down.. NO your not fucking down so pack it up.
=)
Be back soon;
got alot to blog about .
Dont i look happy?
i AM.
Very Much Happy,
From this day on, no more depressing blogs because i sounded like a crazy lady. =)

THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD ;
Is being able to smile; and be happy. Unfortunately that doesnt happen to everyone. I'm happy. I've been happy for a while , but a part of me is missing. YOU & your heart, your smile , your warmth. I know that you are there for me and that you'll always be there but something in me wants you to be there for me in a different way. A way that i could hear " i love you too Alexis" and know you mean it.
The BEST feeling in the world;
When we look into eachothers eyes for HOURS. I know there is definately something there , but what? You make me feel EVERYSINGLEEMOTION there is in the world all at once... is that normal? How could i just let something like that slip away?
The best feeling in the world ;
Being able to be comfertable coming to you with all of my problems. Not tryna have a sob story or anything but you make it seem like everything will be fine. Even though i know it wont be ; its nice to have someone that listens to me... MAN iLove you . i dont care. But one thing i wont put up with is chasing you..and for some reason thats what it feels like ; i dont want to give up ; but i think that is best

If im a fool ; then oh well

How many of yall out there are in love?
I mean thats if you know what love is...
I've sat and thought and thought and I've finally came to a conclusion.
ITHINK I would really love to say ; i think i love someone.
I have to admit ; i let you go a VERY LONG time ago.
But the sound of your name makes my heart jump.
Hearing a certain song just reminds me of you,
might of face, EVERY song reminds me of you.
You piss me off all the time.
But most of the time i just want you to piss me off because i love you.
You notice the little things that matter to me.
Like how i love to show my teeth EVERY time i smile .
Or how i insist that im always right and when im wrong , i shake my hands alot.
How i only suck my pinky when i get extremely bored or tired.
How whenever someone asks me am i puertorican i look a little hurt and confused.
How im the most corniest funiest person you have ever met.
But we're tight.
your like a bestfriend.
and i do not want to ruin this friendship;
just to satisfy the fact that ; i honestly do love you =/

wow

its gonna be Christmas, big whoop. i mean, im looking forward to the gifts and all that, but its something about the holidays that makes me upset. ill elaborate more on that later though.

and so it was said.

Well first of all for the record:

ive been doinq good formyself.
and everyone else.
im in the process of getting over someone.
but
he is a big flirt with me,
he leads me on,
but with the help of ANNYS ive been getting through it.
i want to cry sometimes,
but love is for suckers.
hate is forlosers.
so i just want to be friends,
and go back to the way it used to be.
when we would laugh just to hear eachothers voice,
where we would tell eachother our secrets,
where we would do sneaky things,
just to get away from everyone else.
when i cry,
i feel apart of me being torn away,
day by day,
when i see you,
and sometimes i wonder,
what we could have been.
i miss you .
AND SO IT WAS SAID..
Alexis Santiago, is a sad case:(

i think.

that im personally getting better at rcognizing who i am. im starting to push people away for realizing who they really are and that they are not my real friends. ive been thinking that i want to go back to va because thats where my true happiness is. so when i get to that point i will let you know. on a nother note, sorry i havent been blogging, i will get some new stuff up here soon. oh yeah have yall been realizing that since your getting older, people think you get dumber, haha. maybe its just me. whadafck? since when i alexis santiago dumb. anyway i just wanted to say dt. and if anyone felt like that applied to them, it probably did so leave. other than that, im done for today, bye everyone.